Hello everybody . Welcome to my blog. I believe nothing is "casual" in this life, and If you have been called to read this, I trust that in this words there's a message for you in this very moment. Please take what resonates and leave the rest.
I am very happy to be back writing, this time, in English and from the city of Ubud in Bali. I actually started to write this in Spanish but received a message from my guides that it had to be in English, which makes sense to me, as it is in resonance with the new life I am living now. Although I am open and availiable to share with you also in Spanish, I always follow my intuition and consequently, my posts from now on will be in English.
I have been living in Ubud for 6 months now and, in all honesty, it's been hard at times but so beautiful and healing. The most important thing about this 6 months is the mindblowing quantum leap in my consciousness that has made me radically change my perspective about, well, EVERYTHING REALLY.
I see pain as a big wake up tool, and here in Bali, somethig happened that really almost destroyed me. It took this excruciating pain I was feeling and watching myself going down the spiral of having suicidal thoughts once again in my life to really stop and dive deep within myself to SEE. From my point of view, the path of spirituality and transformation is not for the faint hearted and, when you come to such a special place as this, if you are really ready and willing to look at the shadow places in your phsyche, those that you have been avoinding for years and years, that's when the real alchemy happens, and it can transport you into such a deep shift in the way you see the situations that come up in your everyday life, that it changes you forever; Hence the concept of a quantum leap that might sound as something difficult to grasp when you first hear it, but it's nothing more than taking out the glasses that you used to see through your life up to that point, and upgrade them to a new pair that allows you to step outside of your ego and take responsibility for everything that you go through. Not blaming others, not blaming yourself, just seeing the patterns of conditioning that make you behave in certain ways that are no longer working for you and stepping out of them.
In my case, I had done a lot of ineer work and I was aware intellectually of many of those patterns, but to really FFEL THEM...WHOA...that was a completely different scenario for me. I have a long history with bulimia and using food to numb my feelings because for me it was much more safe to be in my head and live my life from there than to really feel things. But this time I allowed myself to go deep in the depths of the pain and to really see how much hurt those patterns where creating in my life. I profoundly realised how the universe was putting a huge mirror in front of me to make me see how much I was there for others and how little I was there for myself. This was extremely humiliating to feel, but I am deeply grateful for this experience because the lessons learned are some of the most powerful ever, and I now know they will always stay with me. I broke all my patterns of behaviour. I asked for help, I shared how bad I was feeling, I spoke up and shared my truth and had beautiful conversations with the people that triggered those emotions and experienced the most amazing and life transforming breakthroughs that allowed me to realise that the triggers are just there for you to see. It's not about the person that you have in front of you that you think is causing you pain or behaving in this or that way. It is always about YOU.
After this I kept digging deeper and deeper and started journaling and writing about my life and my ascension process (something that I will share in here as well so it can help other people that might also be going through their own personal awakenings) but this time I could see everything from a higher self perspective and hence heal the past and get ready for this new chapter that is coming.
I am happy to announce that I feel called and ready to help others now. My own awakening process started more than 10 years ago and, throughout that time, I have gathered so many tools and wisdom from all the experiences lived that I now feel called to step into the mentoring role. I know well how confusing and extenuating this journey can be. I know now that I am an Indigo starseed with healing and psychic abilities that I want to use to help those in need of guidance. I choose to step into service now. I have bet all I have in this. THIS IS MY CALLING AND I AM FOLLOWING IT. I will be sharing videos and posts to help you guys out there, and will make myself availiable for coaching sessions online. I am creating a program based on all that I have learned that has worked so well for me. I will use all my knowledge and certifications in movement, personal growth, breathwork, crystal healing and everything I learned in my last Bali trainning to become an earth priestess and embody the energy of the goddess.
This past 10 years and this 6 months in Bali have slowly prepared me for this role. I am highly attuned to the energies and cycles of the universe and mother earth now, and felt this last equinox on the 20th of march 2019 as the starting point for this new journey for me. May I be of service to those of you who feel called to reach out to me. In love and light.
Ishtar.
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