I have been dancing since I was five years old. I remember my parents took me
to ballet class because I was too uncoordinated to climb up the slide, so the
doctor said it would be good for me. I ended up being a professional ballet
dancer.
Disclaimer: what I write about in these pages is only MY
perception of the world and of the events that took place in my life growing
up. This is my journey and I give myself permission to express it in freedoom
and authenticity, without trying to force my beliefs or trigger anybody. I am
wise enough now to look at my life and things in general with the highest of
perspectives and understand that everything happens for a reason...LEARNING AND
GROWTH. Hence, everything is perfect at any given moment. No judgment needed,
because it´s all just a matter of living and accepting whatever is going on,
and learning from it.
Dancing has always been there for me, ALWAYS.
From my childhood days, when it helped me to build up my
coordination and muscles,to my teenage years, when It helped me to deal with
stress and with growing up in a world that I felt as hostile and didn´t
understand. Now I know why...I find myself more comfortable in the world of
spirit, communicating with my angels and guides. I see more truth in telepathy
and body language than small talk. I find more sense in such crazy things as
feeling people´s energies, astral travelling to sense them, feel them, touch them
instead of playing the mind games that seem to be the "common
language" in relationships these days. It turns out I´m not the outcast,
but the unicorn.
When you watch people dance and move, you can get tons of
"real" information...they can lie to you with their words and
actions...but the body doesn´t lie...and I guess that´s the reason why I became
a dancer.
I had to go through the "people pleasing stage"
tough. I trained in ballet and worked my fucking ass off to be perfect. I
wanted my father to love me. I knew he liked the fact that I danced. I had to
have good grades at school to make my parents happy, so my teenage years were
like a C.E.O´S bootcamp of "how to be the best and not dye trying"
After a hard day at school and going straigh to ballet class
for hours, I would get home and have to study for an exam or do homework. The
thing I found to get me through was to sometimes stop in the middle of
studying, put some super loud music in my room and dance a couple of songs...
It was like magick, it would soothe my nerves and tension
and put me in a state of full presence and concentration so I would be super
productive in my studying.
I don´t have any footage of those years, but here you have a
short video of how I deal with anxiety.
A few months ago, I started to post some videos on facebook
(Aida Osorio personal and Ishtar movement professional page) and that made me
have to confront some fears of other people´s opinions and just being out
there. While I was waiting for the videos to upload I did what I knew worked
for me best. I danced my fucking heart out and the magick happened.
Now I´m a beautiful grown up woman. The woman I always
wanted to be. I live in Ubud, Bali, where I have easy access to ecstatic dance
events where I can just go, express myself with complete freedom and
authenticity, amongst other individuals that are there for the same reasons
just doing "their thing" no drinking, no small talk, just doing
whatever the fuck you need to do at any given moment, no judgement, just
presence and listening...listening to yourself and what you feel and need...and
listening to spirit.
Frikin´heaven on earth.
But life is always life and challenges are always there to
make you grow, and having such a great tool as dancing to manage those
challenges has saved my ass so many times.
In the video above you can see how I break free and fight
all those fears, insecurities, self doubts and just let my inner strenght shine
through. In the process I clear my throat chakra, which is something I have
learned to do unconsciously during all the years I have been attending ecstatic
dance in Madrid and now Bali. I find this amazingly powerfuland I am extremely
happy and grateful to find out I can perform this clearing not only on my
energetic body, but on other people as well. This is something I want to do
more. Something I want to focus my Indigo healing energy on. Other healers put
you in the stretcher and heal you while they move their hands through your
body. I do it through dance. The music and the movement bring me to a state of
no mind and I intuitively know what I have to do with my hands, with my energy,
with my body...sometimes I even speak strange words from ancient languages that
I don´t even know the meaning of...but none of that matters...because in those
moments I am not Aida anymore, I am Ishtar, the vessel spirit is using to bring
that person whatever they need. It is not me that moves or acts, the mvements
and actions just flow THROUGH ME. And I frikin´love it.
So next time you find yourself in your room stressing out
about something...have a go at putting on some music and just move! you don´t
have to be "Nureyev" or super Beyonce...
you just have to go for it.
Fuck it. In this video I was in my pijamas, late at night,
with one of those hair masks that you put on at night to nourish the dry
ends...so what?
this is me, this is freedom, this is REAL.
